Entry 11: Laugh so deep it cleans your soul...
Well, it’s been a couple of weeks since my last entry. It’s been a whirl wind out here in Ohio for work. It started off busy and hasn’t slowed down. We are out here during a very sensitive time for the program. Unfortunately, we have to remove trees because of the currently infestation of ALB. So, as you can imagine trees can mean a lot to a homeowner for more than monetary reasons but for emotional attachment as well. We all have a favorite tree that we swing on or the prefect shade tree that you may go to just get away from the world. It may shade you from the sun or shade you from the reality of the daily grind in the summer months. I can still recall the tree in our backyard growing up in Stovall. That oak found my peace, soothed my captive heart, took hits from CP’s go-cart, was the prefect hiding and seek spot and not to mention the tons of laughter, love and tears it overheard throughout the years. Now, our “swing tree” in my mom’s front yard has had the pleasure of putting Caitlin to sleep when she was a baby, given Kaylee and Kealynn laughs, and now Gage and Rylee are getting to experience the wind against their faces whenever Aunt Valaree comes home for the weekend. So, as you can see trees hold many special memories for our short time on earth. This coming week is a very vital week for us and I can only keep my head up and say “I’m sorry” every time I speak to an upset homeowner. This is definitely the worse part about my job but there is a bigger picture in store and I can only pray the homeowners can see it too one day. 
Enough about work: GUESS WHAT!? I’m still practicing my vegetarian diet! I know it’s crazy. My two week goal was so easy I decided to extend it for 30 days without meat! It has been a challenge especially when all your co-workers are enjoying fresh steaks, and cheeseburgers that look like they taste out of this world good. Today is 25 days without meat of any sort. I still only have a desire for great sushi and cheeseburgers. I have received amazing support for my goal/goals and so grateful for the wonderful people that God has put in my life. Call it fate or not, I’m thankful. I have been missing my NC family and friends while out here in Ohio and for some reason, Dad is on my mind a lot as well. I’m not sure if it is because of the new places and people or because, I’m seeing so much beauty out of the simplest things in life. Dad always stopped to really look at things and thought about it. Gosh, I miss him so much! I know he misses me too though! I talk to him all the time and strangely enough, he answers me back. I would like to think his ability to see beauty in the strangest things have been passed down to me. For instance, my partner in crime over the past couple of weeks has been a gentleman named Jonathan who works for the state here in Ohio. We were driving on a back country road this past week and I drove over a bend and saw one of the most magnificent sycamore tree ever. The way the light hit it was breathe taking. And just after that the way the light was hitting the stream hurrying to its destination just beside the road was so beautiful, and not to mention the amount of old gorgeous barns out here. Just WOW! Jonathan said, he wished he would see the beauty in things I see but he just can’t. His statement threw me in a deep thought of how life can bring so many people down to the point they can’t find the little joys in life. I wanted to just cry because then I was forced to realize and except that I know so many people that can’t see this either. How sad it is to live a life where the moonlight doesn’t impress you or having a laugh so deep it cleans your soul. 
I’m currently sitting at the Barnes and Noble located right on the river at Newport Levee. It’s so beautiful. I have my headphones on listening to The Script and Adele. As I watch a somewhat expensive boat make its way up river, I can’t help but to wonder who is on the boat, what are their names, where are they going. I wonder if they are as happy as I am right now. It’s a beautiful November day with a cool breeze blowing the hair from my face. I feel like I’m a million bucks today. I couldn’t be more at peace then I am right now. WOW! I see the American flag flying over the river on top of the US Bank building and how privileged we are to enjoy such a wonderful day. Again, I have to say, “It’s truly a wonderful day to be alive!” As, I close this entry, I challenge you to find your peace today! Don’t wait to find what makes you happy and follow your heart. Be happy TODAY! If you have lost your spark of enthusiasm for the simple joys in life, FIND IT! Yes you may have made a few mistakes in this lifetime maybe even today but know somewhere inside you there is a smoldering coal that is just waiting for you to blow it back into a flame. Even if it may seem like life in constantly throwing you into the dirt remember that the scientist are now saying that playing in the dirt can be good for you in more than one way. Forgive yourself, forgive others, and believe you are worth a million bucks. You have made it this far and there is so much more to experience including living, laughing and loving deeply. Smile at your accomplishments, have confidence in in your dreams, and never stop seeking the beauty in YOU!
LOVE YOU!
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